If Only They Told Me

Till Death Do Us Part

If only they told me
Right from the beginning
“they die you know
these people
to whom you attach your fondness
and they are even harder to detach
from your heart and mind”
we should be reminded daily
told over and over
like the warnings
on cigarette packages
love is addictive
avoid inhaling
because withdrawal
causes emotional attacks on the heart
for which there is no cure
but realization
comes with crisis
when we bury these loves
and they don’t decompose
in our lifetime.

Till Death Do Us Part

These Lips

These lips I kiss

Form after form
Somehow taste very familiar
Who is this evasive woman I seek?
So I can recite my lines
And engage in dialogue
And when I find
Her form full
That she cannot accommodate my content
Off I go searching
For another form
To fill with words
Tell me
Who writes this script?
Let me have a word with him
Look
I need a cue
Tell me once and for all
To whom am I to speak
Confess these words of the heart
Who are we casting for the part?
I’m tired of rehearsing.

Chase,Choice and Consequence

This is a project that I did for one of my Photoshop classes. We were supposed to design a CD booklet for a band. I decided to do one for my own poetry…dedicated to the un-born child I almost had some time ago.  It was a painful experience from a painful time in my life. From a time I had to choose a new path. I have not forgotten the past…in fact I have carried it with me all along. This was my way of exposing this darkness to the light…acceptance and forgiveness so that I may move forward.

Zen Walking

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Zen Walking.

Oh brother in law!
You teach me
To meditate
On each step I take
Never to look too far ahead
To concentrate
Because oh brother in law
Your dog shits everywhere
Especially out side my door
Turds clustered
Like land mines
Oh brother in law
I guess I’m soon to be
A Zen master
With no shit between my toes
Or under the soles of my feet
Oh brother in law
I thank you!

A TRASPARENT EXPLANATION

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x ray

A TRANSPARENT EXPLANATION

The X-rays are proof
Conclusive evidence
Exposing my nature
Confirming my small heart
And poor circulation
“you’re so cold” you say
but that’s the way I was made
my love is detached
lobotomized
severed from the sentimentality of my mind
I got the X-rays today
So you could see for yourself.

Dog Eye Bone

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DOG EYE BONE

The city
That butcher
Hacks
Through meat and bone
And I snap at the pieces
My muzzle gnaws
Drops
And
Gnaws
Drops
And
Snaps
At another
And another
Another
Another
My dog eye bone
Tense
At the presence of other muzzles
Snapping at choice cuts of meat
I growl with savage hunger
Never satisfied
Because
There’s always another
And yet no one
I can swallow
To nourish my soul

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IN THIS CHICKEN COOP

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chicken coop

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IN THIS CHICKEN COOP

In this chicken coop
We are
Economic transactions
Paying prices
Set and stamped
Pecking at bar codes
Like chickens
QQQQQQQ QQQQQQQ
Quantity
QQQQQQQ QQQQQQQ
Quantity
Willingly we enter
Massive barns
Like warehouses
And we con con constantly
Consume
The lowest price
Which dictates law
The selection has been made
A fat little finger with a gold diamond ring
Pointing either to the right or the left
On the shelf the result
Products strong enough to be made use of
All standing at attention
Ready for our inspection
Well placed at eye level
Yes the lucky ones
With bar codes tattooed upon their backs.
Outside the sky is blackened
By the chimneys
Busy recycling
The feeble independents
And the cremated labeled outlaws
Are repackaged, and sold as compost
Gardening
Aisle 4
We continue
Con con consuming
Fattening ourselves
While breeders record statistics
And the grease of maximum efficiency
Keeps the d-boning machine
Well lubricated.

The Chicken Grinder

The Chicken Grinder

Fertilizer

Fertilizer

Surviours For Now

Survivors For Now

STATIC

Radio

Radio

STATIC

The radio was playing
Broadcasting
And we were communicating
But I thought I could do better
So I tried to say more
From the frequency stationed in my mind
With an adjustment
I thought I could
get my voice
and message clearer
And so I moved the dial
Raised the antenna
And my tongue fumbled
Now there’s static
And garbled words
A multitude of voices
Struggling to say something
Nothing makes sense
And I’m sorry to have touched the dial
But I had to try
To tune in with you.

To the Candy Princess

Glow With Me

Glow With Me

To the Candy Princess

From This Field
From this poppy field
I confess
I’m comfortable
From here I contemplate
Listening to echo’s
With my minds memory playing out
The Symphonie Fantastique
Re-remembering the dance I danced
At La BAL
From this field
I can see and hear them
Busy busy bees
Busy body bees
Buzzing around your flower
And some of them old pricks
Peckers ready to penetrate and pollinate
And even the wasps and horny hornets seem to smell your candy
Annoying, persistent buggers
Wanting to suck
Your sugary sweet secretions in the sun
Always at the ready with their sting-hers’
From here I can see
It’s best not to get too close
Pick no flowers
Roll in the weed
And stare at the stars in silence

Night Sky

A SOUTH KOREAN SCHOOL ASSEMBLY

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A SOUTH KOREAN SCHOOL ASSEMBLY

I stand in the empty
Teachers room
By the window
Behind the flag
Watching
Pubescent boys
Ordered into formation
Looking up
To the structurally elevated authority
The principals harsh face
Stares down from the podium
His mouth contorts
Spitting
Shouting into the microphone
That amplifies
And distorts his words
On either side
Teachers form
A barrier
Like generals
Reviewing parades
From up top of mausoleums
But from here
I can see the fidgeting
Restless shifting from foot to foot
And the Ethics teacher
Discreetly
Relieving
The persistent
Irritating
itch
hemorrhoids.

 

 

THE SQUID

Squid Drying

Squid Drying

THE SQUID

I ate dried squid
Feasted on it’s tentacles
Burnt them over my gas range stove
Then dipped them in mayonnaise
And I thought
As I chewed and chewed
How stupid the squid is
To jump into traps
Light being the only bait
Just like moths that burn themselves in the flame
The squid are caught and eaten
Must be retribution
For past life crimes
I thought
As I chewed and chewed
The stupid squid
Until the next morning
When I awoke
With sore gum’s
And teeth
Unable to move my mouth
Ahhhh
Then I realized
And bowed to the squid
My teacher!

Run Young Heart Run

Turtle at Heart

Turtle at Heart

Run Young Heart Run

I’m wiser
Older
Though I may feel my pulse race
I run not
Anymore
Run young heart
Run
From where I stand
It’s a chess game
Strategic, calculated moves
So let the rabbit run the race
Run young heart run
There’s lots to chase
But only one to catch

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Fishing for Love

no fishing for me

Small Mouth Bass

In shallow water
Warmed by the sun
In a tranquil part of the stream
A shinny lure
Caught my eye
And I struck with force
And the lure lurched back
Ripping my lips
But it could have been worse
Had the hook set properly
The vicious fight for freedom
Or
Frying pan
I escaped this angle-her
Who has already caught her limit
They’re by her boots
A strand of blond hair
Threaded through their gills
Awaiting her recipes
I’m the lucky one
This time
And so I wait
For this season to pass
And her fishing license
To expire.

The Fishing Lodge

Remember
You told me
About the northern lodge
Where you worked for a summer
In the season of your beauty
As a fishing guild
Leading men
Remember
How you bated them all
Into falling in love with you?
And how angry you got
At the one
Who didn’t strike
At your charming lures
remember how he said
you were angling the shallow waters of attention
and all stops shinning
when the seasonal sun sets
remember?

Here in Time

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Here in Time

There is no escape

Stairs yes

Sometimes a chute

Another way

Yes, sure

Why not

But there is no escape

Everything is slipping from me my friend

The end?

Perhaps

Either way

There is no escape

Its just you

Here in time

Doing time

It’s time’s doing

And I drop some

And some more

I can’t carry anymore

Why and how I did

I wonder still

And when I’m still

The wind speaks and says

There is no escape

We just find ourselves

Here in time

And if we’re lucky

We discover why we’re here

Here, in time.